Wednesday, October 1, 2008

A hug for fertility.


As I prepare for my procedure tomorrow, I wonder if this is it! I am going in for a hysteroscopy, my third since 1999. A scope is put through into your uterus where a small camera will tell the doctors if there are any polyps. They found two this time right in the "best spot" for fertilization. They will cut or scrape them and then I will wake-up, go home, and hope that the next time we try an infertility treatment - we will be successful.

Barren, unproductive, infertile are words that bring tears to the soul of any woman. Isn't it our nature as women to conceive, bare children, or, at least have this option. It isn't easy being surrounded by birth, but we won't hold it against you, if you won't hold it against us! We don't want people to feel sorry for us, just understand. The next time you meet your friend or family member, or come across someone with infertility in their life - give them hug and tell them you understand!

18 comments:

Amanda said...

Oh good luck! I will be thinking of you!

You are creating good things all around you, even if your not creating something in your womb.

SuzanSayz said...

I don't know why but it seems like fertility has become more and more of a problem in the last 30 years or so. Of course it could be that before then it just wasn't talked about. I have so much love and sympathy for women who can't concieve. You are such a beautiful person Michelle and my thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Mandy said...

I'm trying to figure out a way to post this without sounding weird, but I can't so here it goes. Last night I had a dream and you were in it and you had just found out that you were pregnant. That has to be good for something, right? Good luck!

dani said...

i beat the odds, michelle: you can, too!!!
love, big hugs, and a prayer,
dani XXXX

Bren's Life said...

I'll be thinking about you Michelle. Oh- I remember that ache. I have to tell you though, for me that ache is gone. I am so fulfilled with my 4 adopted kids now. But I so know what you are saying.
Good luck my friend.

Laura said...

Let this be my long distance hug. We wish you well. (The hysteroscopy worked for my sister!)

leanne c said...

hey michelle
good luck for tommorow and i will be thinking about you
take care leanne

Mikki said...

I hope everything goes well tomorrow, and that the results will be what you're hoping for.
I'll be saying little prayers for you throughout the day.
:::hugs:::
Mikki

crystal said...

Good luck. (hug) I love you!

donna said...

GOOD LUCK:)

Marie said...

Oh, my sweet friend! Good luck with your proceedure. I will pray for you. Such a hard thing for your and your family to face. Love you!

Jenny said...

My heart goes out to you. My niece has been trying for years. She is the oldest of 8 children. And has watched her brother & sister have children.

Rachel Bagley Wurtz said...

Oh I love you so! HUGE HUG and prayers for you and yours!

Barb said...

I hope you are feeling well, you are certainly staying positive!

Noriane said...

"Give them a hug and tell them you understand." Honestly, I don't think a lot of people around me understand what it feels like to struggle with infertility... Particularly in Utah where having baby after baby is the norm and everyone became a mom in their early twenties. It is a very lonely and painful experience to go through...and it never seems to get easier. So I am sending you a huge hug (let's cry in each other's arms) and wishing you the best, because if anybody understands how you feel, I do!

Chrissy, said...

Good luck. I do understand, HUGS :), and Im thinking of you.

mother goose said...

i found you through a comment on my blog! I wanted to let you know that I went through 3 hysteroscopy's and finally my last pregnancy number 4.
my body doesn't do well pregnant and I had congestive heart failure during delivery.

I went through a lot after delivery that I just wanted to be myself.
I knew I could not have any more children for health reasons and I put up with intense horrible bleeding and hemmoraghing for almost 2 years when I decided I was done with the mess, irritable and being tired, that I finally went in for the hysterectomy. I had a wonderful GYNO and she said had she been a man, they would have insisted I yank that puppy out. I finally did and it was the best thing ever, FOR ME! I had been feeling lousy for so long. I forgot what it was to feel good, instantly I felt great!

I longed for the ability to have children for two or so years after but I think it was me resisting the change that I was going through. My motherhood role was changing. My children were getting older. I did feel like I wasn't completely whole but THEN THE FUN began!! I never have to plan vacations around the red. I never have to worry about camping, Mr. incredible and I can have fun ALL the time and never worry again, about a little one. WE can purely enjoy the moment.

Only you will know. If you are willing to put up with what you have to go through, then keep on doing it. I wish my situation wasn't life threatening or I would probably be rocking a baby right now.

carlo said...

hugs from the heartland...