I keep telling everyone that I am working on "managed faith". Perhaps there is no such thing, but for me, I am putting all my strength into this procedure. I know after 10 years of trying that sometimes it just isn't up to me to decide when or how children will come into our lives. My "managed faith" is simply a way of saying that I have faith, but I also understand that it's not in my hands or even the doctor's to decide if this will be "it".
The infertility process seems to be a very careful and tedious one. I have been in the doctor's office every 3-4 days since we started as they track my egg production. This Saturday's ultra-sound sent me brimming with excitement, as he is saying that Wednesday will be the day that they will, with a needle, stuck you know where - go in and get those eggs! I sheepishly asked the doctor after my ultra sound if this was the day Craig needed to come too - and he laughed - in a nice way - that yes, that would be a good idea!"
I go in on Monday morning for the last ultra sound just to make sure that I am still good. If so, I take the ovulating drug that day and I'm in on Wednesday for our our donation day. I'll keep you updated! I'm nervous, but very very hopeful! I also have a root canal on Monday too!