Monday, August 30, 2010

This is what I want.

Sturbridge Village August 2010 (nini and cici)

Time is tick-tock-ticking away and before I knew it -my little babies are now in third grade, and my boys are now 9 months old! Life right now is wonderful. It's busy and full of of diapers, slobber, messy rooms, late nights, tired mornings, heavy lifting, and lots of cooking. My dad asked me on his most recent visit, "this is what you wanted?" Now the background behind this comment: It was the end of a long day, it was 7:00 and neither he nor anyone eaten yet, The Hawk had just thrown-up after choking on a rice puff, the boys had to be changed, diapers and clothes, for bed; neither were happy about being changed and I looked like I had just been slobbered, spit-up on, and run a marathon ( only I didn't)!

Boston Commons August 2010 (time to go!)

Now, back to the comment. the "this" has to be emphasized and you now get how it was asked. My answer was instant and with an enthusiastic YEs! Now the background behind my answer: I've thought a long time about the way my children have graced our lives. I thought about the first year we were married and remembered that there wasn't anything I wanted to do, but be a mother. Night after night, I prayed and cried until we made the decision to wait. Then when the waiting was over, we realized that the real waiting began. Still, my dream was to be a mother. Infertility sucks! There is no other better way to describe it. The days are long and the sorrow is constant. I am blessed to have had my children grace my life through adoption and by having the burden of infertility lifted and the miracle of birth bless my life. I can't think of any better dream than this and with an absolute Yes - this is what I want.

Has infertility affected your life?
Is or was motherhood your dream?


Chrissy, said...

I remember when I became a Mother and thought WOW this is so much better than I could have imagined!

I was suprised at how much I liked it. More than I thought I would and I thought I would like it ALOT.

so nice to catch up with you.
Wow 3rd grade. YOu look great.
I think you asked a while ago if I had lost some weight. Yes my youngest went to preschool and I finally had some time to work out. I joined a gym changed what I was eating and lost 35 pounds.
Hugs Chrissy

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Heidi said...

I love my girls even when they are rotten. I don't want to be anything else but their mum. :)