Loathing and shopping: both unrelated.

I rarely “hate” something. I dislike, don’t appreciate, think disgusting, ignore, or even really really dislike something; but rarely hate anything –except for now. However, I refuse to succumb to hating something so instead I'm labeling my hate as loathing. Which to me, is about the same thing. First, I’ll preface this with a disclaimer stating that this has nothing to do with anyone person or group of people, it is an object. Those following my fertility quest, and those who have experienced infertility might already be guessing and nodding their heads about this dismal piece of medical technology.

It probably wasn't hard to figure out that our fertility treatments did not go as we had planned. During this last treatment, I felt very calm and in fact had several moments of great peace. There has been changes in my daughters who have attachment problems. I will write about them someday, but for now I just want to say, that even though it's been difficult to go through these treatments, we have seen so much progress in Cici and Nini. This has more than made-up for our disappointment.

One thing I've never said before, is that I've never been able to help Nini fall asleep without a fight. There was rarely a time as a baby and years previous to now, when I have been able to rock her to sleep or rub her back to help her. She was a fighter from day one, and going to bed was never a peaceful experience for us. She's made huge leaps from fighting tantrums, to getting up occasionally. The other night she was in her bed and I could hear her having trouble sleeping. I went in and rubbed her face and back, and about 10 minutes later she fell asleep. It was amazing for me, especially since I never had the opportunity to have those peaceful moments with her; she was so beautiful and sleeping so peacefully. I won't say that this totally consoles me, but it helps to see that our strides to help our girls adapt better is working!

On to retail therapy...
October 29th we are flying to Utah for my brother's wedding. While in Utah, you can be assured that I will be up at the Gateway Center, doing some retail therapy at Anthropologie. Look at all this cute stuff:
Do you ever shop for therapy? Do you think it works - however fleeting? I know that shopping can't replace what I really would like, but it's fun and fun helps undo times of hardship. When is your next all you shopping day? Do you like Anthropologie?